People have begun to arrive and my stress level is through the roof. Not because of their arrival per se, but just because it’s all starting and our wedding day is SO CLOSE and all of the small details are running through my head, and my head alone, and I’ve got grocery lists and guests’ plane itineraries and small task lists and big task lists and yesterday FOUR people changed their RSVPs to “no.” Five days before the wedding. Sigh.
But it’s all coming together. Turns out I didn’t make enough crepe paper flowers and my sister and I have been in production mode for the past couple of days for the centrepieces.
Clive and I have not written our vows yet. I’m not sure when we’ll have enough time to sit down together and write them. That’s a pretty important thing. Still haven’t decided on my walking down the aisle music yet either. I think it’s between two songs, unless we happen to find something else, and I’m not sure if either of the two songs are quite perfect, but those who know me well know that I don’t really give that much of a shit about music as it is, so it’s not like it’s going to ruin the day or something. I just want to invoke the right emotions with the music, I don’t want to have it as a keepsake or anything.
I have a hard time getting my head to stop when I lay down to go to sleep at night. Last night it took me nearly two hours to fall asleep.
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Tomorrow Clive’s sister arrives and I’m SO excited to see her. Then, a few hours later, my oldest girlfriend, Lisa arrives and also- SO excited to see her. I haven’t seen her in over a year, and it’ll be great to catch up. I’ve been so into being a mom I honestly can’t remember where she’s been living for the past couple of months (year?). It’s bad. Then on Friday our dear friend from the Caribbean, Yuri, arrives and it’s been a couple of years since we’ve seen him and it’ll be SO great to see him too. The best part of getting married is the excuse to see all of these old friends. WONDERFUL.
And then Marc and Nicole on Saturday and lots of other people I don’t get to see nearly enough. I’m excited!
I totally understand not being able to get your head to stop.
