So, Ash seems to be coming out of his funk. I was scared it was going to last the next fifteen years- I was really pessimistic about his behaviour and life overall after a week and a half of it. We took him to the doctor yesterday who informed us that everything looked normal. Part of me was happy that I hadn’t overlooked something like an ear infection, and the other part was totally disappointed that we couldn’t just walk out with a prescription to STOP THE WHINING ALREADY.
But like I said, he’s nearly normal again. He just fell asleep for the night (it’s 9pm), even though I’d been trying for 2.5 hours to get him to go to bed, but we all have those nights where we can’t fall asleep, so I’m not worried.
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Clive and I did our budget tonight, something we do every six months or so, and it’s looking good for him. Well, good under the circumstances. He’s made a bit of progress debt-wise in the past year, but with me not working outside of running G Slings, money is still tight and the reality is that my savings are quickly dwindling and unless I want to see them completely gone in the next six months or so, I’m going to have to go back to work. G Slings takes up my entire evenings and all nap time, so maybe I need to start advertising or approaching more stores to sell my stuff or maybe I should stop it and look into some other kind of job. I’m not really willing to put Ash in daycare- these first couple of years are too precious for me to miss- it’s bad enough Clive can’t spend more time with him- but if it comes down to it, we may end up having to. It’s a scary thought.
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Clive and I were taking pictures the other night of my new slings and after we were finished he put the Rebel on the couch, on top of a sling without me noticing. I picked up that sling a couple of minutes later and the camera went flying, landing right on the lens. It’s had a few bumps here and there, but nothing this bad before and the lens is busted. To buy a new one is at least another $100, money that we literally do not have to spend, so we’re camera-less. I have my old Canon S2IS, but I think my rechargeable batteries are in Clive’s Wiimotes. The house still isn’t unpacked yet (I’m sewing the drapes tonight), so I want to wait until it looks nice before posting pictures of the new place. I hear your requests. 
Speaking of the new place- I’ve mentioned before the lease is a short one, only lasting until the end of July (something she didn’t bring up until I was here signing the lease- the sneak), which is only eight months, an expensive eight months due to the fact that a LOT of those months will require the heat being on. Also, I’m going to have to plan my gardening very carefully because I don’t want to plant anything that will sprout later in the summer. I’m not sure if we’ll stay here. I realized by speaking to my sister (who lives in the same building, just upstairs and to the right) and my next door neighbour that I’m totally getting ripped off. She just renovated this place and so she wants to get her money back fast- so of course she’s going to charge as much as she can for this place. I’m paying $850, nothing included for a one bedroom plus den. My sister is in a two bedroom plus office for $950 heat included. My neighbour is in a two bedroom (maybe also plus office or den or something) for $850 heat included and they all have five appliances. I have two. I just bought my first washer and dryer for a whopping $1100. Ouch. That hurt. I have a small backyard, but so does my neighbour. My sister has a balcony.
The thought of moving one more time makes me uncomfortable, but this place with its old drafty windows and super expensive rent makes me even more uncomfortable. Moving here was a really, really bad decision. I’d been looking since July, and this was the first place that was big and nice enough for us to move to, and I think we both just got swept away. We can’t afford it. So, I guess it’s best that it’s only an eight month lease, but it sucks nonetheless, because moving SUCKS (and is expensive in itself).
